It's been a while since I last updated. Dave hasn't been feeling that well for the last few weeks. His legs are swollen and he said that they are painful. His oncologist has been thinking of stopping chemo treatment to give him a break. He has episodes of chills -- starts shaking, gets really severe headache and he gets so thirsty. I have to cover him up with layers of blanket and turn the portable heater on ( our thermostat is set on 75). It takes a few minutes for him to warm up.

We spent a few days in Va last week. Had a nice Easter Dinner with the whole family. I gave Dave, Reglan for nausea, so that he could enjoy all the different food that was on the table but it didn't take long before he got sick. The kids had fun hunting for eggs considering the cold weather .

Dave took the boat out with Danica and her friend Diana while I was out with Barbie shopping for Melissa's Easter dress. They also went fishing in the pond and I stayed home to do my paperworks. Most of the time he stayed at the back porch with a .22 in hand, shooting at targets and some unfortunate creatures like a crow.

We stayed at home this weekend. I am still putting my kitchen together after a month of demolition. We finally have a working diswasher, a machine, that is (not me!) Dave was bored watching me working in the kitchen so he went to the movies with the girls. Danica was off today so she was able to go with her dad. She is turning into a workaholic like Dave. She finally got her driver's license last Thursday. Dave and I were so happy that she made it home after work! Dave asked her to go to 7-11 yesterday for slurpee and when she was pulling in to our driveway, she squeezed herself between Dave's truck and one of my client's vehicle who drives a Land Rover. She missed both vehicles but not those decorative bricks and she didn't even know that it!

It has been a very emotional week for me, watching him in pain all the time. I think I finally come to terms that we won't be growing old together. But only God knows.

A while back, on one of our stops to the VA office, they gave us a form for his life insurance that if we wanted to take half that we just have to ask his doctors to sign it. I didn't like the idea. I didn't like the thought of death. Dave wanted to do it so that we could pay everything that we owe. I had one of those moments of none stop crying the other night and had a lot of sad thoughts and one of them is his life insurance. I brought it up to him the next day but now he has mixed thoughts about it. He said that that money is for me and the girls but I told him that if we don't have any bills he wouldn't be so stress. I just want us to enjoy whatever time God has for us.

We were talking a while ago about our trips to Va. and so on. He said that it's getting hard on him especially on his back. He wants to go back to the Philippines one more time and go back to Ca. He likes to have his whole family here because it's fun when they are all visiting together. We talked about death which makes me cry everytime. I don't want him to leave me which is very selfish on my part.

Anyway, I really have a very nice kitchen! Dave is enjoying all the credits. He was the one who picked out the floor tiles, (I wanted marble floor, but I was out voted), the granite counter (cheaper than I wanted) and the back splash. He also decided on the lay out of the back splash which turned out very nicely.

Please continue on praying for Dave that we will have more years together so that we can enjoy our new kitchen. Thank you Marie for sending us cards and notes all the time.

I also had a good time playing cards with Dave's sisters and their mom last Easter Sunday. Thank you for always being there!

I also played poker that night and I won a lot of nickles and dimes. Took most of Scott's change!

Edith